Chapter 5: The Role Of Circumstance Part 15
In the last few posts, we have been following the story of Mary as she was overwhelmed with work coming back from maternity leave. Even though Mary worked till midnight on email, she felt guilty about leaving the office at five, in part because many decisions were made after hours when she was no longer in the office.
Mary had the option of staying later every night. Her husband was unemployed and could have assumed all childcare duties. As it was, he shouldered most of them. “If I would have stayed at work consistently most nights till 7, I would have been able to build those relationships with R&D that you need, so they have your back. I saw it happening, but I just couldn’t [stay].” Mary’s top priority was the family. She left every day at 5 to make sure she could eat with the kids and put them to bed. “I thought I could make it work. The baby goes to sleep at eight, and I would work till midnight. I kept getting further and further behind, and relationships kept suffering. If I had any free time I was trying to catch up on some project.”
While it is likely that staying until seven every night may have eased the work-related guilt and facilitated the relationships with R&D, I doubt it would have changed Mary’s overall level of happiness or health. In fact, Mary would have had little time to see her family, which would have engendered guilt of another kind. To her credit, Mary continued to put her family first, in that she went home to be with them. At the same time, she was prioritizing the company over her health, which was not sustainable.
Things finally came to a head when Mary tearfully told her boss that enough was enough – “I said if that is really what you want me to do, I am not sure I’m the right person for that job. At the time you don’t expect you were going to say those words, and when you walk out you say ‘shit, I’m basically getting myself fired.’ In another way you feel good that you finally stood up for yourself.” To his credit, Mary’s boss found her another position in the organization, one that was protected from an upcoming round of layoffs.
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